and then...

strange thing, this networking....u grow closer to some and move further away from others....

id like to think i am funny. even hilarious for that matter. humor, i believe, is often more about the disposition... so even though the world around me cracks me up like a party pooper, the little peices of shiny paper fall in an organised fashion.  basically...i think everything is funny. specially stuff that i do...its just that other people take it too seriously.  dont! what is wrong with u people! try and not let my frown and flaring nosetrills get to you... for the jester never dies...even as i hyperventilate...i, myself laugh at what i do. 

now if everything in life was as soothing...

to be just a thought, like a post-it, is to lead a very uncertain life.

two things i value the most... intimacy and the capacity for joy.

i was a more private person than ever, i thought. had i not known myself before? or was i changing? more and more i chose to stay alone. stuck with my books and dogs and cobweb decissions i would never make again.

from time to time it is fun to close your eyes and in the dark, say to yourself..."i am the greatest creator and when i open my eyes, i shall see before me a world for which i am only and completely responsible." so in the sense of it, i have created each of the person in my life. i am responsible for how they behave and what they do in my presence. i am the cause of you-as-i-know-you. nobody else in the world knows the you that is in my life.nobody knows the me that is in yours.