shower shrinking

have never found myself take up turtle like speed when it comes to making decisions about my relationships. is interesting how certain people hold such massive hold over you that it becomes impossible(almost) for you to be able to let go. though i realised..(after hours of shower sessions and completely clean feet!!!) the it is not difficult to end anything. it is not a big deal..quite contradictory to what people make of it. the whole bloody drama about how...and words like "i cant". is nothing but just a lot of melodramatic trash that has seeped into real life from the reel version.
if i decide to end something today, it is pretty much possible just by the fact that i have decided it. me telling myself something is good enough a factor to give myself the strength to carry on with a decision. so then, the conclusion reached by the end of my shower gel was not whether i need to decide or not..but whether i am acting according to my prior decisions. whether what i am doing now, in legue with what i had told myself. so, if i have decided to be with someone, is it fair for me to try and question it based on present or immediate circumstances. is it then, not questioning my own ability of decision making.