deja' vu

well....
have never been much of a romantic. i mean of course..i tell myself that i am..but ultimately..do i really relate to that word?
i mean yeh..i definately am someone who loves security...all kinds...emotional too...but i think i confuse that with the melodrama involved in filmy romance sometimes...so actual..flowery, serenading romance would make me throw up.
so guess i guess i need to quickly stop getting influenced by all these plastic doll stuff and accept certain facts...
a cup o chai is sooooo much more releiving than a bunch of ugly roses!
i know i sound like one of those punks..but its just about what i am comfortable with at the end of the day isnt it.
i know i knwo..i harass that poor boyfriend of mine too much sometimes...but ultimately...god..am i glad he is the way he is...

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